REVERB | DAY 3 | REMEMBER

prompt: rememberWhat is the one thing you did this year you think you'll remember for the rest of your life? (Author: Me)

i saved my marriage this year. not single-handedly. not just me. we. we saved it. it was something worth saving. but things were really torn and tested and battled. we allowed outside influence to come in and really question out ability to continue to work.

and it was saved. you see, marriage is not something that is disposable. it is not something you walk away from when the going gets tough. yes, i firmly believe there are reasons it should end. but when you look at mine - there was no abuse. there was no infidelity. there was no drug or alcohol abuse. i have a spouse who is tender hearted. who loves me fiercely. who respects me. who puts my needs before his own. who compromises. who is present in the life of his daughter. who works hard for us. who provides for us. who has an integrity so strong, he will defend me to my own family, even when i may have overstepped my bounds. that is solid love and foundation.

these are qualities, as i grow older, most women simply don't have. and my heart breaks when i learn these things. and i am at the same time humbled. as we were about to let it break, we stopped, we exhaled, we both took a deep breath, and we realized, it was not worth walking away from. there was too much goodness. i will never forget words that were said to me. i will never forget the tender conversations that were spoken between us that saved me. that literally changed me and breathed life back into me.

and the words of pink pretty much summed it up for me. we're not broken, just bent... and we managed to get it all straightened out. and we continue to work. every.single.day.

"Just Give Me A Reason"(feat. Nate Ruess)

Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep oh oh
Things you never say to me oh oh
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin'
And it's all in your mind
(Yeah but this is happenin')
You've been havin' real bad dreams oh oh
You used to lie so close to me oh oh
There's nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love, our love
Oh our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I never stopped
You're still written in the scars on my heart
You're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh tear ducts and rust
I'll fix it for us
We're collecting dust
But our love's enough
You're holding it in
You're pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We'll come clean

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh oh, that we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again